Interesting how life works…at least that is what has been on my mind recently.
Last year I had procured my office space and moved in so excitedly and anxiously, only to find that the roof leaked, and leaked a lot! My new carpeting soon looked nasty, I found I could not feel comfortable setting appointments, since it would really depend on what the weather might do as to weather or not we could actually carry through with those appointments. Finally the roof had been fixed, that was almost 7 months after my moving in.
Then begin other interesting happenings from life. I was needed to care for my grand daughter for the following 6 months. Never knowing from one day to the next how long it would be, so I never really began to set up something permanent for day care, I decided instead to be present with her and to let go of my own expectations of working.
Well, the call came for her to return to her mothers house, and it wasn’t 2 weeks later I was called to care for an old friend, it was agreed to be about a week, which resulted in about months. There were many things I was not aware of prior to his arrival, and I know now to ask more questions next time. even still, no matter how much I would of known, I certainly would not of turned him away.
Well, things changed and he moved on and a month later, I had a phone call from my mother, whom was standing in her kitchen, with water surrounding her and running in from all over. Her home had flooded and I was once again called to action of caring for another human being. She has spent a little over 2 months with me, and now she is settled in her own space again, and I thought I was about to be free to pick up and begin the business of marketing my life coaching business, when slowly financial problems have come to light for my family. Financial situations that create a seemingly empty pot of available funding to do any marketing what so ever.
So here I am, with the time, the energy and freedom to do what I have been dreaming of doing for the past year, and theres no money to put into the marketing ideas I have been thinking up for the past year. Life seems to have a sense of humor, and I seem to be in the place of looking at acceptance of what is. Not what I want it to be, not what I wish it was, not anything except for how it really is right now in the present moment! The question for me is can I be free and have a true internal sense of love, compassion and joy no matter what is happening around me? Can I trust that no matter what it looks like, that the universe actually has my back, and is there for me, moving in ways that I am unaware of, but just the same working with me and for my best interest? That is what acceptance is for me, to be joyful and trusting that there is a higher power that loves and cares for me, and all I need to do is to let go of expectations, and enjoy the present moment and what life is offering me in this present moment!
If you are struggling, and wish to be supported with your journey as it is, I encourage and invite you to contact me at: coach@cherylfrei.com
